Sunday, November 28, 2010

Just thinking....

Some of the beautiful women in my life...my sisters


My mom...of course. I've always thought that she is so beautiful!!!


Need I say a thing...I love her smiles!



Today I visited with a great friend who was struggling with some things and felt like she was possibly beyond help. My heart wanted to leap out of my chest and squeeze her. I wanted her to see all of the wonderful things that I see in her and even more importantly all of the amazing gifts God has given her.
After visiting with her my mind kept wondering back to our conversation and I had such a range of emotions. I looked at my beautiful children and I thought...I will never let them feel that way...EVER. I felt a tiny bit of anger towards Satan because I know that if he get fabulous women like this one to feel hopeless then he has won half the battle (or more). Then I felt determination. I felt a urgent determination to let any women that come into my life see how truly remarkable they really are (because I genuinely feel that).
Many of my feelings have come from an experience that I had a few weeks ago.
I was jogging at about noon and was almost five miles from home when a woman yelled out to me, "Excuse me miss...do you have a cellphone?" I told he no and was starting to ask if I could help when a huge man grabbed her and literally threw her into her apartment. The woman immediately scream (a type of scream I've never heard) "Help me please, help me!". The apartment had a tall metal gate around it so I couldn't get to her so I looked ahead and and saw a Walgreens up the hill. I honestly prayed to God for more strength than I knew I had and ran as fast as I could up that hill. They let me call 911 and within minutes there were five police cars there. They drove me down to the apartment and we got in and went up to the door. My heart sank...no answer. I looked at the police officer and hoped to see him getting something to knock the door down but instead he told me that they couldn't open the door unless they saw distress. I started to tear up and was hoping I could hold myself together. In these few short moments this woman had become my sister in a way. I felt responsible for her. She had asked me...she looked me in the eyes and asked me for help. I had to get to her.
The police promised to wait outside for a few hours but inside I new they would never catch the man that hurt this daughter of God. As I turned to jog away, (after waiting for an hour or so), the police man put his hand on my shoulder and said, "It's really ok. This kind of thing happens all of the time." Then a woman who lived across the way said, "Ya, that woman has been in trouble for a long time. No one can help her."
Those words have run through my head over-and-over. Someone can help her. She isn't beyond help. There IS a way out.
I found myself following a car into the gated community the other night (no kids were with me) and knocked at the door hoping to find this woman but again, no answer.
It might sound a little crazy but I won't give-up. The worth of souls truly is great in the sight of God and as these two women and others share with me there fears I only feel stronger the love of a kind Father and Brother that leaves the ninety-and-nine to go after that one lost.
So, where I was headed with this comes back to tonight. As the kids and I were reading scriptures before bed tonight we read 3 Nephi 22. I fell in love with verses 8-17. Particularly verse10. It reads,
"For the mountains shall depart and the hills be removed, but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed, saith the Lord that has mercy on thee."
Wow...that covenant that promise of peace is offered to all children of God. The woman I put my arm around at church today and the woman who stays shut, for now, in her apartment.
So as I tucked my kids into bed tonight I made sure they each knew how loved they are loved and left my working husband a message to let him know the same but then I felt like I should let anyone who might one day read this to know as well. I'm not a bit time blogger but if there is a message that I want all those I care about to know then this would be up there on the list.
We are all so loved and there is always a way to find joy and peace.
Good-night all you beautiful women!!!


Saturday, November 27, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!!!


I am thankful for a husband that LOVES to have fun with his kids


I am thankful for our dog Belle


I am so thankful for my kids and that I can be mommy


I am thankful for my life!
I cannot believe that Thanksgiving 2010 has come and is now gone! Each year time seems to go by faster and faster!
Jaron and I have had some really great Thanksgivings over the past ten years. Thanksgivings with lots of family, Thanksgivings with new friends, Thanksgivings with HUGE groups and Thanksgivings with a few very special people.
This year we got to celebrate our Thanksgiving with the Hakes family and we had such a great time (and a great meal)! The highlights we...getting to cook with my kids, having Jaron home for the entire day, getting stung by a bee, seeing all the kids laugh so hard as they rolled down the stairs and Miaja came over and told me she'd had a little accident...it's so cute when she gets laughing that hard... she comes by that honestly!
I don't know if I have ever felt so much gratitude in my heart as I have this year. It starts with my Father in Heaven and Savior Jesus Christ and branches out to my husband and very best friend then my four VERY silly and wonderful children.
I am so grateful amazing parents that are always there for me and who I can always look to for examples that I can trust and rely on and brothers and sisters that I've always admired.
I'm thankful for friends that influenced me for good all through-out my life. I am thankful for good health and am fully aware of what a gift that is.
I am thankful for all of God's creations, big and small.
I am thankful for our home.
I am thankful for each place we have lived and the adventures we've had over the last eight years.
I am thankful that I can keep learning and growing because I realize each day how little I really know and for some reason that only motivates and draws me closer to God.
I am thankful for the challenges that I've had in this life for they have made me who I am and they help me see those around me with more love and compassion.
I am thankful for laughter and smiles...my kids and Jaron share those with me daily.
I am thankful for music and dancing...both are very common in our house!
As cheesy as this sounds I am thankful for love because love is the greatest gift we can give and receive.
Happy (late) Thanksgiving!!!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Happy Birthday Chase!!!


Chase in Park City


Chase LOVES Ms. Belle


Ayden, Miaja and Chase...quite the trio...throw Thomas in and we have a load of fun!


Happy Birthday Chase!!!

Chase turned 6 yrs. old today and I cannot believe it! He has grown so quickly and has been such an amazing child to watch grow!
Chase is incredibly independent and he is an amazing learner. I recently broke into tears as Chase's kinder teacher, Mrs. Kotzer told me how much she loves Chase and what a great influence he is on his class.
Chase is such an important part of our family! He and Miaja are like two peas in a pod (most of the time), and he loves going to school with his big sister!
I was thinking about when Chase was born and it was probably under some of the most "magical" circumstances. We lived on the beach in Maine. It was an incredibly snowy winter and Chase came a few days before Thanksgiving.
One of the things I love about Chase is that he is constantly finding ways to let those close to him know how much he loves them. He leaves me little notes all over the house to say "I love you" and they are priceless.
One last thing that makes Chase so special is his LOVE for our puppy Belle. Chase will come home, hungry and exhausted from school but he'll still walk right outside to pet Belle and tell her he loves her. He is really, really tender with her and I love that about him.
We love ya Chasey!